Usaha lagi!

Assalamualaikum. :)

Semakin banyak hari, semakin banyak benda yang aku belajar. Banyak sangat.

Dengan itu juga, semakin banyak mengajar aku tentang kesabaran dan kematangan. Aku sedang berusaha sedaya upaya untuk sabar dan redha dengan semua yang terjadi yang Allah dah tentukan. Sebab aku yakin, everything happened for a good reason, kenapa kita nak marah2, salahkan takdir untuk semua perkara yang tidak sehaluan dengan kemahuan kita. :)

Kawan-kawan, bersabarlah sikit dan cuba untuk memahami tempat orang lain. Aku juga masih mencuba dan mencuba. Mungkin tak perfect tapi hanya Tuhan yang tahu usaha kita. Walaupun kadang-kadang usaha itu tidak mendatangkan sebarang kejayaan tapi yang penting usaha. Usahalah sebanyak mungkin, sehingga engkau penat menunggu kejayaannya, Allah Maha Mengetahui segala apa yang engkau kerjakan.

Semoga kita semua tenteram dan berjaya.

note: sepatutnya study utk Anat, Physio esok serta PM utk exam this Mon tapi apakan daya, dah banyak hari tak cukup tido, kena rest sekejap, rehatkan minda.

Dugaan

Sabar. Redha.

2 perkataan yang selalu aku cakapkan pada diri sendiri 2-3 hari ni. Hampir setiap saat aku bermonolog dengan hati. Saat-saat yang paling aku rasa tenang ---- atas tikar sejadah. Terharu, sebak, sedih, rindu, syukur bermacam-macam perasaan bila lekatnya hati pada sejadah. Rindukan Penciptaku yang sentiasa mengawasiku, yang sentiasa bersamaku, yang sentiasa memberi segala nikmat padaku. Ya Allah. Berbanyak-banyak syukur atas rasa tenang yang kau berikan ini Ya Allah.

Kalau dugaan ini boleh mengizinkan aku untuk merasa ketenanganMu, merasa kecintaanMu, aku redha dengan dugaanMu ini Ya Allah. Tabahkanlah hati untuk aku terus bersabar dan setia bersamaMu.

note: Zulhijjah menjelma, menandakan penghijrahan wajar dibuat (:

Back to School

Setelah seronok bercuti walaupun hanya tiga hari, tapi masa-masa yang telah dispendkan di rumah adalah sangat best! Keluar dengan family adalah yang terbaik. Tengok tv dengan family adalah yang terseronok. Makan dengan family adalah yang terkenyang. Hehe :p

Now, back in school. Haiz. Come on! Come on! Motivate yourself!

Just wanna share one quote from my lecturer.

"How you love people? To accept them.

Complete acceptance is unconditional love."

note: Study week in 2 weeks time.how fast. =.=

Happy Deepavali & Happy Holiday!

I'm home! =)

A pleasure or a disaster?

Of course pleasure! hehe

after a-bunch-of-assignments-and-workloads-but-still-interesting week I had, I managed to get home and get some rest, besides spending more quality time with my family.

Yesterday (3/11/10) was Teh's Birthday. Happy Birthday Teh! =)

Teh Chye Phing 

Night before we went for pizza dinner, ordered 2 kinds of pizza, vege & non-vege, with some other accessories, it was fantastic. I am sorry Teh if the dinner didn't do any fabulous to you. That's all I and the other friends can do. hope you like it!

I had something very interesting this week, something positive, which I can present to my parents proudly. Hope that will motivate me to achieve more. =)

Some other not-so-good things and more negatively charged, I'd like to forget them all and just look at the bright side.

One thing I learn from all things so far I've been studying here, is maturity. It really teaches me about maturity.

Just now, Teh asked me, what is my birthday wish this year. Oh, 22nd Nov is my birthday hehe. Ok, so she asked me but nothing I can think about because I am sooo grateful with everything I have today and I don't feel good asking for more.

after thinking and thinking, maybe there's one thing I really want --> maturity =)

I have 3 days to rest, 3 days to enjoy days without formal lecture, 3 days to spend with my family. Let's use time wisely =)

Happy Deepavali and Happy Holiday everyone! ^_^

note: All the best to those having exams too.

One beautiful evening.

Pada suatu hari, kami berlima (terdiri daripada Teh Chye Phing, Nazihah Abdul Rauf, Siti Syahidah Adnan, Nik Nur Syazwani Rosli dan Khairul Badriyah Kamariza) pergi berjalan-jalan di sebuah bukit yang terletak di Putrajaya Precinct 11. Nama bukit tersebut ialah Taman Saujana Hijau.

Tempat tu best saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangat! :)

Hijau nan permai, angin mendayu-dayu, suara burung berkicauan, sinaran mentari yang menyenangkan... haha!

geli sungguh ayat. tapi serious! memang cantik, terasa macam ada kat oversea pulak.. :D

tak percaya? cuba tgk gambar2 ni...

cantik kan? model2 tu pun cantik jugak. hehe

kalau senang2, dtg la tempat ni, bersiar-siar sambil menyihatkan badan. okay? bubbye =)

Last week was a challenge. This week may be fun.

Last week was not a very good week to me. I was totally not me. I blew up easily, I had disgusting bad mood, I had very much anger and the most important of all, I don't know why. Crazy!

I tried to control myself. I did keeping myself away from anybody. I did some praying and zikir to make my heart calmer. I did try to ignore those bad influences. but somehow, I failed. but I cried because of failing. huhu

and as usual, the workloads never get lesser and lesser, stress in the other side building up higher and higher. Yes, people say, stress is very good for your performance. I knew it. Trying to be positive by all means.

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Entering the new week, I got something new to start with. Last weekend, I spend my whole week reading. A book entitled Fit For Life. Such a nice book. If you people are very looking forward for some turning point in your health or your diet, please search for this book. It is very informative and supportive. The principles are easy to understand and easy to follow. What a nice book I've read. Worth reading!

The first day of the week, I started my day with a glass of warm water plus with half-cut lemon. MASAM! then I got a green apple, very high in antioxidant, good for balancing your free radicals and ensuring good health in the future. As the saying goes, an apple a day keeps the doctor away!

Let us see for any improvements in my health and appearance.. You can try too! :)

Since there's so many things to do, test, quiz, assignment and presentation, wish me a very joyous week this time. ^_^




note: I got his number! hehe

Its about homeopathy and agree to disagree

Four months ago, I was instructed to consult a psychiatrist. I did. I did go to him and I took medications.

Was I crazy? or am I still crazy?

It is not crazy, it's just something disorder in my mind. and I know deep in my heart, its not the problem with my mental state, there is something behind everything.

After two months plus studying about homeopathy, now I understand, there is something behind my sickness, something that cannot be seen but it's there. Something that hard to be explained but can be felt.

It's my vital force that is sick. He is sick. He has lost many many years back and now, he is really telling me, he is sick!

and he needs help!

Fortunately, I have good friends here. Mingle around with them making me feel more comfortable and realize that everything has cure. Everything except death. And I really want to help people, firstly by making them to realize that how important health is to the quality of life. 

Homeopathy really has awaken me!

and now, it is not my alternative treatment but it is my FIRST way treatment no matter how serious the case is. (insyaallah)

Everybody has their own opinion. Why?

This is because we can never be able to look one thing as a whole. never! why?

because we are humans. and humans have MANY limitations.

For example, in the story of blind men with the elephant. everyone says different perception about the elephant but the fact is, nobody knows the whole thing about elephant.

We, humans, are like them. We are actually blind. Only God knows everything.

So, its okay to have different opinions. The best thing about this is when we can agree to disagree. Not many can do this, honestly!

One last word for today, let us start learning -> agree to disagree. =)

Why am I like this?

I don't know why but I seem to be always rebellious (with certain people).

I always have different thought with someone older than me, especially the ladies.

Arggh! Hate this.

I tried to keep quiet and ignore them. but I can't.

It hurts me.

I just want the truth to be known and justified. Honestly!

I want to be loved by Him, a lot.

This evening, I'm alone in this comfortable-small-room of mine in Cyberjaya, listening to some sort of music and when I reached to this song - Open your eyes by Maher Zain, my tears dropped down without me realizing. This song really touches my heart. 

I miss The Almighty. 

I really miss Him.

All this while, He has been with me, guarding me, giving me life, showing me the direction but I always forget Him. 

And one thing came cross my mind; whatever He gives me is the best thing for me and that is what I need, maybe not what I want. 

He sends his love by the people around me; who always take care of me, who always remind me, who always be there for me. I realize, its His love, not their love.

I miss Him. I cried because I miss him. I want to be loved by Him a lot. 

The time has come and I had no preparation for that. May God gives me strength for tomorrow.

Assalamualaikum :)

Dah lama rasanya tak menulis kat belog ni. Last post pun pasal merdeka pada 31 Ogos 2010. Today is 29 September 2010. sebulan jugak tak update belog kan. agak sibuk, kalau ada free time pun, memang ada kerja lain yang nak dibuat. huhu

Harini rasa tergerak nak tulis sebab nak luahkan semua benda yang ada dalam hati, walaupun tak semua, at least 70%. because I trust nobody more than 50%. that's humans, they cannot be trusted!

After going the journey for almost 2 months, the time has come. after happiness, there is always sadness. I remember I was very happy when I came to this university, met new-really-good-friends, with new spirit and new environment. but i totally forgot, during that time, I am supposed to be prepared to face challenging and difficult days.

and now the time has come.

For the past few days, I have been so stressed up plus with unstable emotions. I don't know, maybe it was because of the medication (oh yea, I am under some treatment). But, I don't know, after I came here, I have totally changed! I am not the old me.

I am trying very hard to control my emotions and my feelings but somehow it affects my health. I got really sick and I can't focus on my studies. I keep reminding myself to be more matured, but then I realize, I am only 19, too small to think about the problems and too small to be a worrying type.

All past memories keep coming to my mind especially when I am about to go to sleep, then my tears would accompany me the whole night. I kinda upset with the situation and I really don't understand with some people who never thinks of other people.

Luckily the one and only question that have been living with me all these while never came up to my mind when thinking about this problem -- Why are all these happening? because I can never find the answer but end up disappointed.

Right now, I really miss those two months with my classmates, they are the best classmates I've ever had. I miss the moments where I can freely talk, I can freely smile, I can freely laugh and I can freely make jokes. I really miss them! :'(

 I have lost someone who is great in my life. I have lost somebody who is very good to me. I have lost someone who is always stand firm to find truth. I have lost someone who never scared of being himself. I have lost someone who is supposed to be well-respected. I have lost him!

I don't know about my future days, I don't know what is going to happen to me. I can just pray I am strong enough to live tomorrow.

I really gonna miss this whole class. I can't even imagine we can live without him. I really pray that God will give me strength to live for tomorrow. :'(